With My Eyes Closed

spending time alone

2009-10-13T16:05:00.001-07:00

Enjoying my first Norwegian autumn in three years. It's pretty here when the sun is out.

drinking coffee from the Che Guevara cup

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tree outside my house ( :

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having fun with my shadow.

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Edvard Munch. Beauty.

red red wine

2009-09-10T11:49:00.000-07:00

so i've been down with a headache all day and around four o'clock last night i had to run to the bathroom to throw up. thank god i didn't break anything, because last time i got drunk and threw up i broke the toilet seat. people are still waiting for me to replace it.

today i watched the entire first season of gilmore girls, i ate so much pizza i felt even sicker than i did and now, at nine in the evening i'm not feeling any less hung over.

somehow i've always walked around with the idea that when i turn eighteen and move out i'll magically become all "grown up and mature."

surprisingly i don't feel any less juvenile.

what, i'm supposed to cook myself dinner every day? and i have to make sure i eat enough fruit? shit, maybe i shouldn't have spent all my money on alcohol and perhaps buying that skirt wan't such a good idea because, oh yeah, i have to pay rent!

i'm definitely having a velvet underground day today. go nico!

i love george.

2009-09-04T14:32:00.000-07:00

so i guess an update is due right about now.

i've been relatively dead on the blogging for a while , but i am getting ready to revive myself and start writing about my thrilling life and experiences. and this time i'm cutting out capital letters. for some unfounded reason they annoy me a lot.

lots of things have changed since i last wrote on my blog and i guess i have become a little older and hopefully also a little wiser. major turns in my life have been relocating from cancun to bergen, finishing highschool and moving out. so yeah. i'm step by step discovering the joys and sorrows of a life as an independent woman in (a scary amount of) control of her own life.

the good things:

grocery shopping. i find this almost equally exhilarating every time.

bottles of wine. lots of them.

no cerfew whatsoever. ever.

coming home raving drunk and not having to hide it.

the people i live with. they're great almost all the time.

the bad things:

being broke. i dont deal with it very well.

being sick and alone. its not the same when mom's not around to take care of me.

having to prioritize buying toiletpaper and detergent over the new cd i really want.

the constant rain. i must admit i've gotten used to the sun over these years.

and that's it. the good things outweigh the bad things so it's all good.

george.

2008-03-05T15:50:00.000-08:00

The Raveonettes rock!

Cravings

2008-03-03T13:09:00.000-08:00

Yes, I'm bored... My stomach hurts!

Sunday

2008-03-02T13:15:00.001-08:00

Sundays are kinda cool.

Yesterday Carmen and I went out. It was nice, we wandered the streets of Isla and eventually ended up at the youth hostel. Some American fishermen tried checking us up, but they just weren't good enough.

We left them in a shady alley.

A beer and some dancing later we were ready to go home and I was driven to my house on a rather unstable yellow moped.

Friday I ate cheese and chocolate fondue with Maria at Les Gloutons. Delice.

All in all a nice weekend.

Not studying for the chemistry quiz...

2008-02-28T18:01:00.000-08:00

Valentines day rocked!

English muffins!

2008-01-12T20:35:00.000-08:00

My mum is making tea and the english muffins are in the oven. I love english muffins. And I like the word muffin. Like Puffin'!

I didn't have salmonella, I was just stressed, and my tooth has stopped hurting, so I think I'm gonna wait for it to start hurting again before I do something... Root cannals sound discusting! They actually DIG out the nerve that is connected to your tooth!

Anyhow, I've become the biggest nerd ever! Like seriously! When was in L.A. I bought "Medical Terminology Flip Cards." Honestly, I am a bit ashamed of myself.

But I'm learning loads!

-Agra meand sudden onslaught of acute pain, anything with the word "alg" in it means pain. "Ab-" and "Abs-" means away from, from and /or off. "Allo" means other or differing from normal. Sclerosis means hardening.

And it just goes on and on! I don't even read anymore, I have an addiction towards my flip-cards.

Oh, an I castrated a cat! For real! Like, at the vet, he just gave me the friggin' scalpel and told me I was allowed to castrate the cat. It had pretty small balls, so I had some trouble in the beginning. My hands were shaking like hell, but I did it. That male cat is now unable to reproduce. Should I feel bad? I don't care, I castrated a real, live animal!

I don't think this is normal for 17 year old people...

Bircher Muesli rocks my socks! And I really wanna go to London!

Denial

2007-12-06T18:01:00.000-08:00

I think I might have (somehow, mysteriously and magically) caught salmonella again. It feels kinda like last time; my stomach is acting weird again and I've been having headaches frequently.

But this is the thing about me; I'm in a constant state of denial.

If I think I have salmonella, I just block it out and deny it even exists. I have had a toothache lately, and tootcaches really suck. But I've just been ignoring it. Trying to pretend it's not even there.

I'm alo like that emotionally. A couple of weeks ago I was kinda sad, like love-sad, but I just tried to surpress it. (Not that that worked out very well, I was being a bitch towards everyone.)

It's weird. It would probably be a lot better for me if I just tried facing what is actually there; Getting my blood analyzed or going to the dentist. Then my problems would be fixed in no time.

But I guess I would rather live in denial than having to face the fact that I have salmonella or that I have to do a root cannal. Or the fact that my love life is a failure.

So now I'm gonna go live hapily in oblivion until the tooth gets too much to bear and my stomach hurts so much I have to go see a doctor.

Until then

Oda

(The picture is Sam Riley. He's my new male ideal, I will never settle for anything less)

Nerves

2007-12-04T13:50:00.000-08:00

So it seems I really am worthless when it comes to writing a blog. I am simply to lazy. Or unmotivated. Whatever.

I had a headache this morning when I woke up, so I didn't go to school. We have a lot of crap to do. Math test tomorrow. Finals next week (My, oh my). I have to go in a debate Friday, and DEFEND teaching creationism in schools instead of the theory of evolution. (I guess it'll be a laugh.) I have to present my english "movie" tomorrow, and I'm really worried about my exam in Literatura...

But I guess it'll work out somehow.

And I have become a chemistry nerd. I seriously love that class! It's so strange. In the beginning of the year, I kinda hated it, but then I just began understanding it. So now it's one of my favourite classes! I guess it's the way it goes...

Apart from that... Not much new... My sister and grandma' are coming in five days...

Now I gotta go study my ass off!

I'm listening to Pete Doherty's song "Can't stand me now", hence the picture.

Tiredness... Sooo tiiireed!

2007-10-31T20:53:00.000-07:00

AAh! I am sooo tired! It's incredible! I blame the antibiotics! Tomorrow I'm going to L.A. for the weekend. I havent even packed yet...

And today is halloween. I'm just so tired. Really tired! And slightly confused.

Good night!

(The picture is Van Gogh, by the way)

Cold days

2007-10-25T18:15:00.000-07:00

Today has been a beautiful, fresh day with a semi-cold breeze blowing time along.

School was great, we were very few in the classroom. Loads of my classmates are in San Fransisco. The remaining of us had a good time. When I got home I ate dinner; bagles, scrambeled eggs and salmon. I studied for a chemistry quiz. After that I went jogging. It was less tiring than ususal. I came home to discover my mother had made "havremakroner". Cookies of some sort. Made out of oat.

Delicious.

We're going to L.A. next weekend, and this weekend I'm having a Halloween party.

I still haven't finished reading Jazz by Toni Morrison, but I'm optimistic. In L.A. I'll buy the book I lost from the school library and then I can rent new books again.

I guess, all I'm trying to say is that I had a really good day. I'm newly showered. I'm wearing my cat hat and I'm looking forwards to going to sleep.

Good night, sleep tight, and don't let the bedbugs bite!

(Oh, and the picture is Edward Hopper. I love the mood!)

Books and all...

2007-10-07T19:21:00.000-07:00

I read a lot, I love it, and I find books easy to read. Except for the ones by Toni Morrison. I really love her writing, I do. It's beautiful, but her pieces are the only ones I have to struggle to finish. Sometimes I can only spend 15 minutes with her books. Normally I can't get away from literature!

Right now I'm reading Jazz (been reading it for like... 2 moths!!), I've read Bluest Eye, Love and half of Beloved by her already.

The thing is, I can't rent any more books from the school library. I managed to lose a collection of poems by Sylvia Plath. The librarian feels sorry for me, but she can't do anything. School rules. Too bad.

They were really good poems, though.

So, now I can't rent any more books from the school, which means that I can't really read new books at all.

That kinda bothers me.

I'll go and sleep now. School tomorrow. Up at five. Boat. Taxi. Car. School. I guess it'll be nice.

Boredom

2007-10-06T14:10:00.000-07:00

I'm bored!

I think I'm gonna eat a mango. After that... I dunno... Maybe I'll watch some old episodes of the O.C.

Boredom...

2007-10-05T20:14:00.000-07:00

Today I found loads of pretty images on the internet...

2007-10-04T16:36:00.000-07:00

I should be studying for a spanish test now. But I don't feel like it. Studying for it makes me feel too overwhelmed, and it gives me really bad confidence. The spanish language is so complicated it scares me. So instead of reading, I look at pictures by Alphonse Mucha. Wonderful person. His art makes me relax.

I like this time of day. Dusk. It's not dark, but still, the night is slowly wrapping everything up. And the sounds are clearer now. There's a fresh breeze coming in from the sea.

So now, I'm gonna go make a cup of tea, and slowly, without stress, I will start reading the stories and learn the vocabulary.

Until next time,

Oda

2007-10-03T16:50:00.000-07:00

Well, yeah, I guess I'm gonna start blogging.

I'm in Mexico now, and I've moved in to this wonderful house by a lake, and right now I guess everything is going just fine. The last blog I had was kinda... Angry?

And I love my new bathtub!

Today I went to school, by boat, as always, I came home, ate dinner, did my homework, and I'm going jogging soon. Nothing much, really...

Oda